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Friday, March 20, 2009
Could only use the comp now. Went to band really excited bout mine-syf but...

Yeahh. Today is really a bad day. Made me cry twice. And really dejected now. In just one day. Urghh. But im really angry with myself after hearing what mrs chew and mr pang said. Screwing up the stupid music exchange was bad enough. And i tried practising, but it ended up worst. I try telling myself not to be nervous or scared but i just couldnt do it. The moment i see all those eyes staring at the stage and the cameras and stuffs, i get really nervous and scared. Especially when i know that i didnt practice that much, or at least correct all my stupid mistakes. And today i could be so stupid that i made really silly and stupid mistakes that the moment i got off stage, i felt regretful. I hope i, or we wont have this feeling after syf. And although what mrs chew and mr pang siad was like very stright-forward and harsh, but after thinking about it, it's actually true. Like everytime during sectionals we'll slack here and there. How much did i actually practice?! And i think we treat sir really badly. He tries his best to teach us and stuffs but i guess we only listened adn corrected only around half, or even lesser. And during the jjudges commenting, we could see that dissapointed look on sir's face. Whats the freaking problem with us.

My mood was like severely affected by this stupid thing. Okay, not stupid. But anyway, it was worst just now. Luckily had Mae-ann and Valerie to listen to me rattle on and on and keep trying to make me laugh! And now my mum is making it worst by keep nagging adn scolding for dunno what shit reason. Damn pist off. Actually wanterd to uplaod all the photos i took today but totally no mood. Will uplaod maybe tmrw or sunday k.